Tuesday, April 24, 2018

Confession

I have a confession to make.  I'm not living a writerly life.  It's Tuesday (again) and time to post an SOL story.  I have nothing (again).  Did I use all my good stuff in March? No, it wasn't that good.  BUT I did write everyday in March.  I knew I was going to have to pay attention to the world, noticing and noting, little bits and big ideas.  I was living the life.

Maybe I ran out of steam.  I was so into the writing this year with the SOL challenge.  Each day, I sat down with an idea and sometimes even a plan.  Most of the days the words were there waiting to be written.  It was a completely enjoyable experience!  I was proud of myself for being accountable to an ideal, this community.  I was feeling completely capable!

For the last couple of weeks, I've been hiding in shame - the complete opposite of my myself last month!  Why didn't I have anything to say?  How can I be so busy and have not noticed one thing to share?  Where did the words go?  Maybe I'm not cut out for this...

So, I'm sorry for letting go of my writerly life.  I promise to try harder.  My notebook will travel with me and I WILL WRITE!

Will you be holding me accountable?  Do you expect to see my back here on Tuesdays?  Are you interested in what I have to say?  I think so.  I think you are out there.  So, I am counting on you to count on me.  I know I can do this... 

See you next week, friends.


2 comments:

  1. It is strange that writing everyday is easier than once a week. You'd think having a whole week would provide more ideas. Alas, it only provides less discipline. Some weeks, writing on a Tuesday only feels like a burden. I am glad you thought you could...and did!

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  2. I felt the same way after March! It is very strange. I disagree with you here though - your writerly life shines through in this post as you notice your feelings, compare then to now, and finish with a cliffhanger... see you next week indeed.

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